So this is it?   The end of our journey?  Can it really be?   It seems impossible and implausible.   Deep inside I am in shock and terribly pained, but I won’t dare show you.  You’re a selfish child and I am an incensitive asshole, but we’re relearning each other, figuring out our boundaries, likes, dislikes, needs, wants.  We don’t just walk right into knowing it all. We learn through communication, time and some unfortunate trial and error.  Regardless of how you thought you felt up to this point, you were far too quick to call the time of death on this patient. You have no idea how the next few days might have been.