I went to a great concert with Guy. I had the perfect level of “I don’t care what people think” buzz on, in a good way. The show was amazing.  Asaf Avidan. Look him up on youtube. He’s so talented.  In the midst of the evening I was having thoughtful moments where I could see beyond the immediate, the present, and the bullshit. I had moments of clarity and maybe a few of strait-up crazy as well. You were in that stream: longing, anger, love, frustration, hopefulness, jealousy and dispare.  I questioned myself from all angles. I am certain however that I’m approaching the limitation of my stamina for state of “relationship”.  I try to see things through your eyes so that I may find some answers to my questions and feelings. Some I can manifest, and others I can not. It’s frustrating, but in a state where I have very little, if any, time to verbally communicate with you it’s the only thing I can do to keep pushing forward. I do wonder some times if you’re just waiting for me to give up this potentially fruitless quest. If I can actually stay the course with as much enthusiasm until July. I wonder that often myself. But a new day comes, you’re not there, and I try again.