-I’ll say it again, you are right.  I can’t possibly fully understand the emotions and turmoil inside you.  Though I try, I’m sure that I’m coming up very short in comprehending the complexity of the volume of competing emotions.  I get so hopeful at times when you send me messages about a possible future or seeing me, and then come crashing down with frustration and sadness when you withdraw.  This blog is an outlet for my thoughts and feelings, which unfortunately can occasionally be coarse or insensitive, but they are merely mental and emotional ramblings.   I sometimes get impatient when I can’t see you and hold you in my arms, and I apologize for not fully comprehending the terribly complicated position you’re in.  I wish you were single.  I wish you didn’t have a house.  I wish we lived closer.  I wish this was a year ago.  I wish this was easier.  I wish I could sit with you by the fireplace at night.  I wish I could stare at your face and feel my heart swell.  I wish all of these things and more.  However, seemingly despite all of these complications and hurdles, I keep pushing because I know what’s in my heart, who’s in my heart.  I will try harder to understand.