-Good morning, my dear.

-I’m sitting in the Verizon store seemingly for-fucking-ever…  I’m old and gray now.  But I need to ensure that my cell phone network extender works at my house.  I have a work-around, but I need a solution, not a quick fix.  Much like YOU!!!   The only good part is that there’s nothing here to distract me, so I can work and think.  I have worked and I have thought.  I, of course, thought (and think) about the quandary that you/we are in.  Some of the random thoughts that pop in my head are:  1) What do I need to do to show/prove to you my earnestness?  I know that we need to spend more time together at least, which is what I’m trying to do.  We could go to a few therapy sessions together (yours, mine, or other).  You need to let me know what more, if anything, you need of me.  2) What needs to happen for you to make a decision?   Are you deliberating?  If so, what are you deliberating on?  Are you waiting for something from me?  Do you already know what/who you want (i.e. moi), but don’t know how to make it happen?  3) Are you going to contemplate and push this all the way until my birthday?  If there are things I/we need to do and pondering and/or planning to be done, then it makes sense to take your time. I would like some answers to these questions as much as you would like answers to yours.  Next time we talk, OK?  Other than that, still at Verizon, dehydrating, and gaining empathy for mass murderers.

-CHANGE YOUR DAMN MIND!!!  I want to see you.  Dying!  XO