-Just starting to think about new years.  Another one apart.  I can’t think of anything better than looking lovingly at your happy and slightly drunken eyes as we count down the last few numbers to the new year, and kiss deeply.   But no… I’m going to think of you and you’re going to think of me and we’re going to kiss someone else… again.   I can honestly say that in my life I will have lied no bigger lie than the kiss I give this New Years Eve.  Can’t we just run away?   Promise me this will be the last time.

-Your spider sense is way off these days.  I was in bed with the laptop watching a movie.  I needed a mellow night after Thanksgiving.  Me and Br### had a few after we left my mom’s.

-I was thinking last night that this must be very tough for you; not knowing who or what, both pros and cons, someone’s feelings getting hurt. You’re wrong when you said that I’m not sorry about putting you in this position.  I am.  I wouldn’t want to put you in any difficult situation like this.  It’s a heavy load (load…).  Now I would love to frame it that it is my loving responsibility to save you from a less-than-extraordinary life, but the fact is that I’m trying to rescue both of us.  It should have been and should be “our life”.  You know that they say that married couples have ups and downs and struggles?  What if perhaps this has been our up and down, or our struggle?  Maybe we’ve gotten it out of the way, or at least these issues, and the road ahead is free and clear of obstacles?  I’d like to think that.  I do know that you give me and inner peace when I’m with you and I want to start our life together sooner than later..  Now go recite your mantra.   XO